{Underneath the Stars.

22 August 2009

Hey, it's been a long time since I blogged.
Just been too caught up with council nowadays.
Have been staying back in school for the past week till 7 and even going out to settle council stuff as well.
Yesterday was a record time man, going to Town and leaving there at 11:30 and reaching home at 12:30.
Adding in the council performance rehearsals, it took me quite long to even figure out the basics.
Damn, the performance is only Weds and we can barely figure it out.

Despite council proving tiring and demanding, I still find it okay as it really pushes me to my limit and make me realise how precious time is.
And I am really really impressed by how the EXCO can even survive this man, they still have to co-ordinate and all and plan things wayy beforehand before we even start discussing it.
Yup, but it's good to see that no one is cracking under the strain yet.
Just all of us working together as one.

As for life outside council, I feel like a hypocrite to my class.
They have voted me into council with my hollow promises that I will join them for class outings despite council.
Oh, how great a liar I am man.
I have been skipping class outings and birthday celebrations in class for council.
take for example yesterday.
It was Kenny's birthday and I PROMISED them I would go after council meeting no matter what.
And yet, I feel like a complete ASS man.
Serving the school community at the expense of my classmates and friends sounds just like glorified bullshit.
But this is what I signed up for, so the best I can hope is that Teacher's Day would prove enjoyable to them in a meek attempt to make up for my false promises.

As for ventures, even more disappointing.
I've been trying to squeeze in my time into ventures for Saturday meetings as well.
but I got to admit my attendance is proving dismal as I simply lack the energy and time to go for them anymore.
While they are busy making the whistles for venture night, I was at council.
I've been trying,really trying to help.
Hope that the sawdusting of the whistles would help no matter how insignificant it might be.
I will see you all on Venture Night then, it's about time we relaxed as a venture group.
Not so much of planning but actually sitting down and relax, relieving our experinences we had in the past.

As for my studies, they ain't looking particularly inspiring either.
The physics SPA was screwed up with my answer of 50g so far off from the actual answer of 100g.
And the maths CA, failed it again.
Mr Kuang gave me the look of "You'd better start doing something about it" look.
Damn it, last again!
And my econs, my freaking best subject.
It's going downhill.

My life aint looking rosy at all but I still go along this motto.
"Cannot take it, also must take it"
It was something I subconsiously picked up in scouts.
If you are entrusted with responsibility or you chose to take it up, you will have to start delivering your promises and not fail them.
No matter how bad things are going.
Pray that things will start looking up man.

Into the Night. 11:34 AM
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20 July 2009

Today has also been a COMPLETE WASTE OF TIME.
I totally didn't absorb anything at all.
AT ALL.
Wah, really waste time today.
So much for starting work today.
Ya today mostly tutorials, physics tut and lec were the same.
Just stoning as usual.
I actually try to listen lah but I just don't get it!

Ya, the day passed by quite slowly as a whole with no breakfast since I practically chased after the bus today.
Been happening for a week!
Got to quit this habit soon.

Yah, anyway getting installed as the 35th student council tmr.
Still can't actually believe that I am doing this.
I did tell myself at the start of orientation that I am NEVER ever going to join a hierachy based leadership type of CCA.
But look where I am now?
Right at the top, council.
Gee, I really hope I don't regret this choice of mine even though I can't do much about it right now.

Hmm, been trying to play the guitar just now but it was like an EPIC fail.
Need to practice somemore i guess and stop using facebook and MSN so much.
Okay, shall try to start work now.
Hope I won't be chasing after the bus again tmr.

Into the Night. 10:11 PM
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19 July 2009

Hmm, been a crazy week so far.
It all started on Friday. School as per normal and with council installation rehearsals later on.
It was more or less the same.
We ended up packing the cards and all for the guests after we're done.
Hahahaa, sorry Steph and Chang for making fun of you guys.
Quite fun to disturb you two, hehehehe.

yup, went to Jon's house later for a little breather before going on to East Coast Park for venture fishing.
Relaxed a while at the Macs where I fell asleep.
And walked about 40 min to the jetty.
that was fraking tiring with all my school books and all.
and it was awesome to see that the lighthouse is actually on a HDB block.
Slept overnight at the ECP pavillion but it was a bit scary with all the crazy Malays hollering beside us and fighting amongst themselves.
HAhaha, we armed ourselves with mini scissors and all.
Jon Shannon and tri went to watch "Angels and Demons" on Tri's lappy but I fell asleep.

Hmm, yup the long awaited fishing.
turned out to be boring..
Well at least I learnt how to fish!
Albeit it was only two mini fish.
Still proud of my haul though.
Went to Town to do some retarded YMCA Flag day that jia Lei signed us up for.
Guess who we saw?
Mr Tan.
Woah, lucky I changed out of my CJ attire, guess he didn't recognise me.
Anyway it was real hard and tiring to do flag day.
Never did experience it before until that day.
I promise to donate to any person who holds a tin in the future!

Hmm. yup rushed back home for a quick bath then rushed off for Sabrina's bday party.
Erm, yeah wasted quite a bit of time earlier on waiting for people.
But yeah, just talked and ate in the end.
Discussing about stuff..

rushing through my work now as I blog.
I just can't quit this annoying habit of mine. Procastinating.
this ain't the right time for me to procastinate but yet I am still doing it.
Sigh, I really do hope I will change soon as life in JC can't get any better.
PW, council and even venture night issues are coming up.
This ain't the right time for me to procastinate at all!

And to add to it, I have been feeling strangely emotional nowadays.
Especially all the stupid love songs i am hearing right now.
Why am I even like thinking about all this crap man?
As if thinking about it will do me wonders.
Just hope it goes away real soon.
Real soon.

Music is really a powerful tool to stir up feelings in people.
Time to drown myself and try to start work I promised i''ll finish at 6 initially.
O heck, at least I am starting.

Here are some pictures at the fishing trip.

Into the Night. 11:03 PM
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16 July 2009

Hiya, it's been a while since I blogged.
It has been a bout of bad days after bad days.
Ok, let's start with this Tuesday.
Yup, got back Chem which was damn good for a B!
And Maths, wtf! E!
I studied so damn hard for the paper.
The only subject I have been studying all this while and yet I get a frigging E!
I spent like almost one whole week on the bloody subject!
Screw this! E! E! E!
WTH! E!!!
Wah, outburst over. But ya still trying to get over it.

Today is the worst day yet.
Timetable supposed to end at 1.
And yet all H2 subject teachers want to see us after 1.
And I have tuition at 4! GREAT.
And I had to rush up and down to get my blazer. GREAT
And I got my freaking results! GREAT
AND THEY SUCK!!!
Damn man.
I know physics was gone but getting 49/100 is a real kick in the teeth or whatever.
one more mark to D.
Same for GP, worst when the examiner comments "bad handwriting" and after that "You need to learn how to write.".
Screw it man, I was rushing right. And they were still legible in my view.

Yah, econs last. Was expecting to get an A but guess what C!
C! C! C!.
Wah, I didn't expect that at all and well so did the majority of the class.
Final result:
EEECCB, it's like a new vulgar word.
Triple Es for GP,Math and Physics. All one mark from D.
Two Cs for Chinese and Econs.
B for H1 chem.
This SUCKS.

Some might feel that my result is actually quite good compared to theirs but I do expect more from myself after putting much effort in my studies.
Wonder how am I going to tell my parents about this.
They always gave me the freedom to do what I want but look at what I gave them in return.
DAMN.

I am in like a emo/pissed state now.
And I should be doing ECONS tutorial now instead of crapping and blogging.
Promos better be good though.
IT HAD BETTER BE GOOD.
Time to start now then.

Into the Night. 10:22 PM
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06 July 2009

Aye, been a long long while since I blogged.
How time flies, the June Holidays have gone and pass in a blink of an eye.
Well, it wasn't that fun to begin with.
With the hols crammed with camps and activities.
Sigh, JC life so hectic and stressful.

Heck, anyway yeah. Went LTC, PLTC/UTC and yup get to know more people, especially council people.
That's the fun part of it.
As for MYES, think I did generally okay except for physics which is confirm U.
I don't expect much from a paper that I finished in 1 and a half hr for a 3 hr paper.
But for the others quite okay la.

Yup, went to school today for Morning Assembly training,?!@?!
Yup, rehearsed the pledge and anthem and all..
Went KAP for venture meeting later.
Great having LiRen back from England and
also Xiang An and Kai Yang as well.
We played for 2 hrs at CCAB until more people like Shaun, Douglas, Nick, Jp started coming.
Sigh, the good o' days.
At least we got half of our lvl down!
Really fun having a reunion again.
Nice to see that almost everyone has stay almost the same.
HAHAH, these bonds never break.
How I miss SJI now laa..

Quite tired out from the soccer/ failed pool from today.
Pray that there's no PE tmr cos I am really really tired.
Pray more that there's no mass PE!

Into the Night. 10:35 PM
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