{Underneath the Stars.

30 April 2009

Yeah, school started at 11 today!
Went to Toa Payoh to discuss GPP with Ig, Kenny and Kg.
Quite productive and I am quite proud of my PW group.

Anyway, school felt like a remedial today and felt damn draggy.
Screwed up the Maths CA bad but should be able to scrape a pass.
Damn, I actually studied for it.
Really need time for me to really understand maths..
Econs was free period so we had talking cock session in class.

Yup, NAPHA today as well.
Standing Broad Jump -245cm ,B------(5 more cm to A)
Pull ups -4, D. Damn it..
Shuttle Run- 9.7 sec, A!
Sit and Reach- 51 cm, A!
Situps- 43, A!
yeah, 2,4 got 10:22 which is like B. (2 seconds to A)

In total got like 25 points out of 30!
Not bad, but still silver.
Damn pull ups.
I just want to get Gold for the first time in my life la.
Going to train hard for pull ups next year.
I'd better get all As!

Anyway, the class is imbar la.
All the guys averaging <10>
Damn sad la.
Good to be in a sporty class like this, encourages me to keep working out so I won't lose out.
Jun Guang was imbar btw, 12 pull ups and Louis got like 18 or 20??
Must go learn from them already, ahahhahaa.

Went Toa Payoh with Fiona, Jade and Greg to eat Macs.
Talk cock session again, ahahaha but ya quite fun la.
Long ride back home as usual.
Looking forward to class gathering tmr, laserquest man! Hope it'll be fun.

Didn't see you in school today.
That sort of minimise the random flurry of thoughts about you.
Been listening to "Crush" by David Archuleta and yeah, feel quite emotional when I hear the song.
This is mental man, a lot of guys are like going after you and I won't stand much of a chance.
Well, ahhh. This is driving me crazy again.
Must stop thinking about her!!!

Into the Night. 8:17 PM
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29 April 2009

Woohoo, today is the last day of campaign!
YES! Finally, it ended.
Not to say I didn't enjoy it but it was really really really time consuming.
Just felt a load of burden off my back.
Went for lawn bowls today btw, quite fun.
Crapping around with Mark, Vincent and Melvin.
School starts at 11 tmr!! Can afford to wake up like 1 hr later, but still need to do GPP at Tp tmr.

Yeah, this is killing me.
I just can't get you off my mind at times.
Trying my best not to think about all these but yeah, I just can't at times.
Why???
Sometimes, I just long to be back in SJI again where this emotions won't stir up in me.
It does help that none of my lectures are with you so that I can focus on work.
I really really hope this crush/infatuation will go aawayy soon.
Sigh...

Into the Night. 9:20 PM
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28 April 2009

Yeah, really good day for me today!
HAhaha, life really throw you suprises here and there.
Yeah, 2.4 run today.
I gave it my all and got 10:22!
which is 2 seconds away from A but yeah...
My previous timing is like 11min.
Still damn happy la!

Tried doing pullups and suprisingly managed 5!
which is unbelievable, considering I keep getting 3 nowadays.
Hope I get that on thursday.

Yeah, tmr's the last day of campaign.
Just wanted to tell you guys, Clare, Melvin and Steph.
what awesome campaign mates you make.
the fun times we enjoy crapping with each other and the jokes and all.
Really really appreciate it.
Well, Melvin I already know him through lawn bowls.
As for Steph and Clare, it's been really great knowing you two.
Hope we do really get into council together and end up in the same wing if we do get in.

Into the Night. 8:49 PM
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27 April 2009

Saw you in school today.
Have no idea why my heart skipped a beat when you walked past.
Stupid stupid infatuation.
Hope that I will not see you often as I will just keep thinking about you.
Going off to mug for Maths CA now!
Stupid promo questions on Gp, Sigma and recurrence are just so hard...

Into the Night. 10:19 PM
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yeah, today didn't turn out to a good day after all.
Went to put the 40 tissue boxes in the canteen and yeah, 28 were left during my break.
Well, that wasn't the point..
The point was my face and poster being vandalised.
Well, I felt really pissed at first when I saw it as I am quite sure I did not offend anyone.
But after a long ride on the bus, I felt that this was one of the negatives running for council.
You are always subjected to people's opinion on what you do and I am sort of regretting my choice to run for council now.
Still, this is just a minor setback in life and I will continue pushing on and ignore what has happened in the past but live in the present moment.

Anyway, thanks Clare and Melvin for supporting me.
Friends do help at times like this!
Value and treasure friendship.
They are what keep you going in life.

Into the Night. 4:41 PM
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26 April 2009

It's been 2 weeks since I went to church and yeah, decided to go today.

The discussion about AWARE was amusing, hahahah.

Went to eat with Jia lei and try out some traditional Jap food which is a bargain for like $5.50.

Anyway, ventures is appearing to be fading fast.

Increasingly number of ppl are ponning and showing disinterest in coming already.

Well, hopefully next week's CIP will be eventful at St Theresa's Home with me as IC.

We really need to get back to where we were.

Back to today, yeah.

Felt damn proud of my PI, it looks like it's gonna get an A la.

I spent like 3 hours on it, it had better get one.
Yesterday was meant to be for revision and today was yeah meant for revision.

But I still feel quite proud of myself.

Finishing

1) PI

2) Chem Tutorial

3) Maths Functions/Graphical Techniques

4) Tidy up GP file

5) Econs hw.

Yeah, wanted to chiong physics also but I am quite tired already.

Anyway, in case you were wondering what I did on Saturday.

I spent almost the whole day doing this...

Cool right, we'd better get with all the effort we put in!

40 tissue boxes that is going up in the canteen tmr.

Good job, Clare, Melvin and Steph!

Cannot believe we actually finished this impossible task.

Hope we do get elected in!!

Into the Night. 10:53 PM
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24 April 2009

Just got through the most exhilarating experience in school, campaign speech.
Well, it doesn't help that I am the first to make the speech of all the nominees.
But I really love you guys, 1T24 FTW!
You guys really calmed me down when you cheered for me at the start,
really really thankful to you guys!

Well, life has it's ups and downs! And life can really spring you suprises like this once in a while!
This is proving to be one of the happiest times in my life now!
And I believe that my life is coming back on track.
At least I understand maths now after the tuition.
Now for intensive mugging!

Anyway, good luck to those who have speeches the next few days!

Into the Night. 9:17 PM
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20 April 2009

My mum needs an operation for her leg in Nov.
I am shocked and stunned for words when I heard the news.
Never did I expect her to need an operation.
true, she was sick with her nose problems, and many other health problems.
The signs were there with her showing me her medical report full of problems.
but what did I do?
I just thought it was not a big deal and adults being adults will solve the problems as usual.
I find myself an unfilial son,
Why am I so lazy just to sweep the floor?
Why am I so lazy to clean the dishes?
Why? Why? Why?

If I had done all of that, she might not have this illness at all!
Realised that I am a very selfish individual, I have always thought that my family didn't care about me but never once did I think that it was I who did not care about family.
I have been focusing on my life, going out with my friends and all.
But never did I spent quality time with my family.
Waves after waves of excuses that I was busy always seem to pop out in my mind whenever my mum ask me to do something.
I have been relying on my mum so far and until now, have I realised that it is time for her to rely on me.
She is getting old and with ilnesses, I should be sharing her burden as well.
Never shall I procastinate ever again.
NEVER!

I have always been under the impression that I have matured already but how wrong can I get.
If I was mature, I would have known that studies were the priority in my life right now.
If I was mature, I would not have gone out with my friends that often, neglecting my work.
If only, if only..
There's no point in mentioning the "what ifs" right now.
This is the time for me to stand up and contribute to the family.
I should make a conscentious effort in doing what is right.

To hell with the social life, to hell with pleasure.
Through my life, I have only been thinking about myself most of the time.
I promise I will work hard.
Not only for myself, but for my family.
My family always had the general impression that I know what is right, and trust me impeccably in the things I do. So, they left me alone.
I have disappointed countless and countless of times, coming up with excuses one after another.
This must end.
The journey will be hard.
I admit thatI've been struggling with my academics and throw in the council election campaign soon.
This wouldn't get any easier.

I must be strong, I will not falter under the stress and start fulfilling the potential that I have in me.
I pray that I will keep in mind this mentality and never shall I revert back to my old ways.

Into the Night. 7:47 PM
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14 April 2009

I shouldn't be blogging now but instead try to complete my late hw frenzy now but I just need an outlet right now to let all my thoughts flow.
Right, I have just finished thinking of what each person in my grp has to say for the econs presentation after like half an hr on the com.
The thankless job of a grp leader. ):
Well, I am used to it. As long as it helps the grp, I won't mind sacrificing a little sleep time. (:
Yeah, there's still a pile of hw waiting for me on my desk but even though the mind is willing, the body is not.
I am like fighting a losing battle against sleep man, coffee totally does not work on me!

Still have like 2 econs CSQ qs to do, one part econs essay, massive gp readins, MI and the massive PI to complete.
It doesn't help much when I have to start from scratch for my PI.
Looks like this week is going to be a long long week for me.
It's just monday and I am already so so tired.
K, my aim for the night is to finish the two case study questions and perhaps read a bit of the GP.
I am like at the 14th reading already. 4 more readings to 75%!
It's like 12:09 am now and I have no idea when I'll finish.

This reminds me of the route to O lvl mugging last year but it's just way too early man.
School just feels like a chore and work at times.
Must tahan!!!!

Into the Night. 12:03 AM
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10 April 2009

Hooya! Just realised that this is my 100th blog post!!
This blog has recounted my sec 4 life till now.
Been reading through it and I've realised that it's mostly happy during SJI days.
Barring the relationships part! hahahaha

Hmm, shall start talking about yesterday.
Yesterday was pretty dull for school and having to submit PI 2nd draft on Monday just pretty much made it worse.
Went Beauty World LAN to play dota since IG gathering was like 4 hrs away.
It has been almost a year since I last touched it.
Pretty much got thrashed like a noob! 4-3. I was using Jugger...

yeah, Kenny, rus and I went for IG gathering at Plaza Sing at 7:10pm and we thought that we were late. Lol, turned out that only YanSheng was earlier than us.
I feel really bad for the Ig gathering as it turned out to be an almost complete failure. ):
My 60 msgs were in vain and could only reach the masses of 10 ppl.
We just ended up eating our food outside Plaza Sing, picnic style, inhaling the smoke os somkers nearby.
Charmaine was damn blur la, say the dustbin is a toilet. HAhahah.

We went to watch Fast and furious 4 which was not bad.
van Diesel damn buff man and it is quite ridiculous that he pummeled the shit out of O'Conner but he still ain't bleeding while two punches from O'conner to a noob policeman made him have stitches on his nose.
Barring that, it's a pretty decent movie but we had to sit all the way at the front with the speakers blasting music at us.

As for today.
slept like a pig till 12 and went to Thomson there to have tuition.
What I didn't expect is that the tuition was at his house!
He has a room specifically catered for tuition, home tuition indeed.
The teacher's quite weird, as in he keeps whacking his left hand every 10 seconds.
Guess he probably had an accident or something.
Went to Prata House to eat with Gerald and Yan Ting.
I ate 2 egg prata and mutton soup.
wah, the mutton soup was green in colour.
It tasted okay thankfully.

This blog post is getting kind of dull.
damn, forgot what I was about to type.
Stupid sis just pissed me off.
"Printer not working leh, how?"
"My Business eh?"
Wtf, piss me off.
Who does she think she is man, come back home whenever she wants and thinks whatever she is doing is right and all.
Ah so much for a merry 100th blog post.

Into the Night. 9:27 PM
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08 April 2009

What a day it turned out to be.

Zhi Yang and KO just got called by NP that their appeal had succeeded.

Banking and Finance.

Sigh, the class is getting diminishing in numbers as the day goes by.

First Yong Jie, now the two of them and plus James going off in like June?

My class would be left about 20 ppl.

The poly appeals triggered the whole class to go try for poly la.

First, Keith want to try, then Jade, then Annabelle, then KG, then ...

The whole class want to go poly already la....

What I don't get is why didn't they choose poly in the first place.

They might as well just have like 2 more months of holidays if they put as first choice!

That being said, I don't blame them for choosing the poly route as JC life is real stressful.

I've been falling asleep in tutorials/lectures more often than usual despite my best efforts to keep awake.

And failing the Sigma and econs fa doesn't help much at all.

JC life is really hard and A lvls just does not look like something that can be mugged in 2 months time.

And Calista told me during PE today that ppl who fail midyear=leave the sch already.

What the heck man, this is a real doze of reality for me as until today I thought that I can just chiong the subjects like the last 2 months.

Adding to that, I have decided to try for council.

This might seem to be like a route to retaining by the looks of it.

But I have decided to go on with it as I believe that by putting pressure on myself, then would I realise that I do not have enough time and cherish every second that I have.

If I fail to get into council, so be it.

Despite all the negatives about lawn bowls,

I have made some new friends there like Melvin and Vincent who are really nice people.

And if i remain in lawn bowls, I might get more time to study instead. (:

Hopefully, tmr's IG gathering will turn out ok even though there's like a low turnout.

I am the organiser somemore..

Anyway, back to 1T24.

I will miss you guys, KO, Zhiyang and Yongjie.

Good luck to you three in your poly life and may you get what you want!

Don't forget us when you're in poly!!!

1T24 Forever!!!!

Into the Night. 8:08 PM
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02 April 2009

You Are the Kid with Potential!

How you see yourself: You don't really care about school or grades.
Rules apply to you, but you don't seem to take them seriously.
You are very laid-back and outgoing, so you are easy to like.
You can be funny when you want to be, but being serious about things can occasionally be an issue.

How others see you: Others see you as the slacker.
Whether they know it for a fact or not, they may think of you as the "bad kid" who hangs with the "bad crowd."
They generally like you, however, because they wish they could have a stress-free life like you.

Who you are: You have the potential to be great. You are very intelligent, but you don't try because you don't see the point or because you have better things to do. You find it difficult to take studying seriously or to work for long periods of time. You don't feel that others have much faith in your abilities, so you laze around because you don't have faith in yourself. You will, however, be a stress-free person, and that will make you happier than most.

Just did the facebook quiz online. Suprisingly accurate except for the part Whether they know it for a fact or not, they may think of you as the "bad kid" who hangs with the "bad crowd." and very true for the part You can be funny when you want to be, but being serious about things can occasionally be an issue.

That is the most irritating part of myself that I hate the most!
being too serious at times, i just can't help it man!!
just don't know how to react at times, really.

Anyway, I have decided to run for council but I am shocked at the amount of ppl applying for it.. It filled the whole of LT4 which means like 120-140 ppl all for 40 slots. Totally not feeling confident now but I will still go for it. It's worth the try!
really need to start opening up and talking to ppl if I even want to get inside council. Can't seem to gather my thoughts at the moment, will be blogging tmr then. Good luck to those doing PI!

Into the Night. 10:27 PM
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